Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
Now that I’m in remission, and progressing as well as anyone could imagine, I take the time each day to reach out to those who are still in treatment. There are a couple of Facebook groups in particular that I read and post to.
One common symptom that many complain of is fear. One thing about leukemia is that it comes out of the blue, with little warning. For me, I really had no idea that’s what I had, until the doctor described it to me. So, the sudden diagnosis scares most patients, and it’s how they react to that fear that colors their treatment and recovery.
As I’ve described, my first reaction, when I got the call from my doctor that day, was to pray. I didn’t know what to say to God, so I prayed the Serenity Prayer,
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Not my will, but Thine, be done.
I then asked His blessing on my doctor and his staff, for His guidance, and for Him to give my family strength. Then, I asked him to cure me, if it was His will.
Then, over the course of the year, I did what I was told, and went through the treatments I’ve described in these pages.
So I share that faith with others on the Facebook groups, and elsewhere. I can only hope that it does for them what it did for me.
So now, in remission, I know I have Him to thank for my life, and my sanity.
Today, I ask Him for the wisdom to trust Him more, in all areas of my life. I could go on about how things in my life are different now, and I probably will, but suffice it to say that none of those things could do with less of God’s help.
Thank you, God. Oh, for faith to trust You more!